Bhabani,
I am deeply sorry for the loss of your wife in April 2018. I too experienced a great loss in April 2013; my Dear Mother passed away from Leukemia after a 10-month battle well fought. I understand the feelings you are experiencing.
I felt isolating sadness and debilitating loneliness. Especially being an only child, no surviving grandparents or close family members nearby to grieve with or find comfort. But, through this tragedy I found God and learned I am never alone. I believe my Mother is one of my Guardian Angels. I speak to her often and I am at peace. The path of spiritual awakening changed my life. You can reach out anytime if you need a friend. I am an email away. I am praying for you.
Your Friend, Angela
Austin, Texas

BHABANI DAS, thank you for your message , I am speechless to have stumbled upon it . I understand so deeply how it feels to yearn for your loss and even for losses that didn’t play out like me looking forward to continuing to raise my sweet daughters together . I had no idea I would never be able to , that so many precious anticipated life events would never occur at all for my baby girl. It was impossible for me to process for a very long time. I too had to be alone through it all no support and my other sieving child was taken from me the same day. I quickly learned there was no way to express or process what had happen and I was enduring. That was part of the magic looking back , I didn’t think it would be possible to be off the cold cement floor watching the ambulance drive off with my newborn , I didn’t think I could ever recover from the shock of finding the little cue only a mother would notice , That something wasn’t right simply because my sweet baby did not have her hand up to her cheek which she always did even in ultrasounds! ..calling paramedics and following the dispatch on the phone walking me through how to do cpr on my newborn baby While in so much shock and panic and trying to keep my toddler calm Enough to focus and keep my baby alive in some way somehow by some miracle . .. unfortunately she did not make it even after the best medical help arriving so quickly only god himself could have sent ..I felt actually I’m not sure I was capable of feeling in a lot of the events that day but I sensed I would never ever ever be ok again , that there was no way to live after this .. and then it got worse when I couldn’t see my older daughter I had raised and been with every moment since she was born . I went through many stages of grief that I didn’t realize at the time is what they were , for an unexplainable reason I am not only here to say I survived this tragedy, but I have been carried through it’s all by GOD and his glorious angels who even while alone and impossible, mercy and love they poured over me and carried me breathed for me because I could not.
Sorry this is long, I just want you to know that YES yes! Hands down yes it is possible to receive a calm meaningful life because I of all people have experienced this beautiful blessing! I am always happy to lend an ear or my experience if it’s wanted or needed but I just felt drawn to tell you it’s possible , I had no reason to be joyous or happy or even just ok but regardless I have experienced breathtaking beautiful love grace happiness and so much more and I am so grateful for the blessing I have to glow with pride and abundance of love and light in my life today and to reflect on the transformation it took to get here . Bless you and don’t stop seeing you and your divine light , you will see it if you persevere and mine was more glorious than I could ever dream of